Wednesday, May 13, 2015 ♥
10:09 PM ; Hey.
Hey.
This is 23yo Daphne of 2015 typing.
Isn't it crazy? The last time I wrote here was on the 24th January, 2011.
Throughout these 4 years, I have actually came back and check on how much "change" this space made or to read and reflect on the shit that happened in the past. I must say that I DO remember some of the things that happened. Amazing uh?
However, this is not the point of my return. I don't know what made me return to this place at such an hour and this time of the day in 2015. I really don't. "musicwithinme" came to my mind when I was reading usual blogs and doing my usual entertainment shit. I head back here and started reading my old posts.
Me, a teenager, venting all my daily shit about school, friends, relationships and families. I sounded really stress and I had major issues back then. But look at yourself now! HA! Stress??? Really?
Like they say, you never know what the future brings. Looking back, I was still really immature and bitchy lol. Honestly, I did change in these 4 years ever since I graduated high school but let me warn you, I did only change a little.
What are the changes?
- Relationships are no longer a priority or NEED for me. Maybe not even a WANT anymore.
- The way I react to a problem. Yes, I still do think of "evil" ways sometimes when I want to take revenge. Isn't that natural? You tell me. However, I used to react badly without thinking when I get mad at something or someone. Not saying that I don't react badly now, but I can't be bothered? I do think A LOT more before I react but I will go "argh, I can't be bothered to do anything" (although I do mind it but I kept it all in my heart and mind)
- I became more of a "I like to be alone" person. I mean, I used to be that way too but over the years, I find that when I am alone, I tend to create less problems for others and myself. Loneliness can only get someone as far as they want, but I feel that if you really do enjoy peace and tranquility, just know when to balance it out with accompaniment.
- You think you were depress at 16? LOL look at yourself now. One word: FUCKED
Anyway, I decided to return here because I think typing shit out would help me with my issues. It may not help miraculously or effectively but honestly, talking things out does help me relieve some stress in a way.
I have removed my previous posts not because I want to escape from it. I just need no distractions as I am on my journey to recovery now. Besides those posts, everything else remains even though some are just useless. I will leave everything else as it is and put all the past behind my doors.
I hope that by reopening this blog, I might get an hind sight of where I am heading to in my life. No one really read this space anymore and therefore, I do get to type whatever I am and still keep it to myself.
So this post is just a heads up entry. I would probably add more each day, no promises yer know. But I will my best.
DAMN I FEEL TIRED! -I actually knocked out after typing that ! sign lol!-
L♥VE. 10:09 PM ♥
