13th May '15
I cannot afford to procrastinate or be distracted anymore!
4 weeks till the final year exams and I am not even 30% of where I should be at. Yet, here I am wasting my time away on youtube, blog, facebook, candy crush and just other minor distractions. WHYWHYWHY!?

Just 2 months ago, I could spend 1 week on studying without youtube entertainment, using my cell or even just looking away from my notes.
I can't seem to find that motivation and drive anymore.

I think one part of that cause is due to my tiredness. I can't seem to stay awake and I mean stay awake, not feel tired-I-need-sleep that kind of stay awake. I do have a sleep disorder, I know that. I just need to be diagnosed to confirm it. Honestly, I have been taking supplements and medicines to fight this problem. It did work and I stayed up one week with only an average of 3 hours of sleep a day. But now, it's hard to stay awake during the day even when I am on the second dose.

I really can't afford to do anything else but studying. I have a really strong feeling that I am going to flunk my papers and I have to return to Singapore eventually. Part of me do want to return where I can be with my parents again, but the other 60% of me still wants to do this! I love being away most of the time, and I love being alone right here in this room with no commitments (apart from studies), no disturbances (apart from the heavy footsteps from upstairs, my distractions and food), and I have everything in this room to be comfortable in (including that double size bed which is just a pure temptation to my distractions)

I have to find that drive again! I have to seek for it before it's too late. 15th June will be my first paper and I can honestly say, I am less than 30% prepared for the exams. I just have to do it....

Goal set to myself now:
1. I need to stop all distractions. Even if it's just a youtube video or two. Only educational videos allowed.
2. Limit time of sleep. You actually don't need that much sleep. I know I am constantly tired lately but you have to pull through!
3. Eat less or no carbs. As you know, carbs are the main culprit as to why I feel so heavy, down and tired after meals.
4. I need to be on notes 24/7!

Daphne Ng, 17
Deaf Knee;
1st Jan
No discrimination,
If so, please, leave.







Smokers
Food Poisoning
Cats!
Clowns

Listen to manymanymany orchestras in Vienna, and
end up playing in one
Bach Trombones, 1 Tenor & 1 Bass
New Cello
More Music, More Scores
Distinction for My Grade 8 Practical
Ipod touch
New Phone
Lose Weight

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Atiqah, girlfriend(:
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